Bliss and Mayhem

The day the sky turned red

It was a 40 something degree day, the day that the sky turned red and I thought that we had entered the set of a movie scene. We had moved to our farm about 10 days earlier, still excited about being in a new area and even using GPS to get our bearings to get to the closest Kmart, Woolies and Coles ( which in reality is only 12 minute drive away ). I had boxes still packed and piled up all around, barely emptied the kitchen items and essentials and was prepping for our first Christmas at the farm.... Read more →

Unsteady

Another beautiful sunrise i watched this morning. Overnight is was a minimum of 25 degrees. Our "swampy" (evaporative cooling) was running all night. Most people hate sleeping in the heat but for some reason i find it the most comfortable. You know Summer has hit the Sunraysia region when my ritual of watching the sunrise require sunglasses. The sun is BRIGHT. It's Sunday. Which usually means that my mind starts preplanning for the week ahead. I look around the house and try to work out what needs to be cleaned up. Then I can't be bothered. It's only a couple... Read more →

break down - get up - break down - get up

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Or hurls you into a mental breakdown. I'm doing okay. Of recent weeks, i've felt really strong. My mental state of mind has been good and then BAM. Hits you like bricks been thrown at you full throtal. I have never felt this fragile my entire life like i have this year. It's like walking on eggshells in your mind and trying to manoeuvre your way around the track so you don't crush them even more. Giving mental high-fives to yourself when your "good day" means a smile and lightness and no sick... Read more →