Bliss and Mayhem

A few good men.

I hate the news. I hate that my feed on Facebook is filled with sad, devastating snippets on a daily basis. I had to unfollow a whole lot of them. I stopped watching the news a while ago as the noise of it made my head implode. There is never nice stuff on the news hey? I'm sure all this stuff has been happening at the same rate but due to technology and instant updates, we are bombarded with it all the time. There is something to be said about cutting your time "online" even if for just a little... Read more →

The best advise I can give you.

image via Pinterest Dear sweet lord Jesus, if there is one thing that brings me close to a toddler meltdown, every time, it is the most mundane of activity that needs to done as an adult. Grocery shopping. I loathe this excursion weekly, and the mind numbing process of doing this with 2 kids in tow a toddler and an Autistic boy that countdowns every single item that gets put into the trolley and then questions you when you put something “extra” in, drives me to drink, coffee. I was so desperate to “get out” of this thing that I... Read more →

It is about paying it forward and how I am doing that with kiva.org

This is NOT a sponsored post Just a feel good share, about a way that you could change the world. Is the world getting more fucked up? Or is it that because we can hear about it straight away that we are more aware of how fucked up it has always been? I don’t know. It’s like the chicken and the egg conundrum… I try not to think about it too much, because when I do, it hurts, I get really sad and angry, and it makes me feel so little and insignificant in the scheme of the world. How... Read more →

The crash of the grief

Be authentic. Be. Authentic. That is what every blogging forum, blogging Facebook group and most Blogging conferences say is one of the most important things to be when setting up a blog. The other is to find your niche. I’m not sure what my niche is, as I write about what is going on in my life. So I guess my niche is my life. In the last year, I have spent quite a bit of time building my blog, writing and putting my heart and soul out onto this Internet space and I have really loved the process. I... Read more →

My best mate

Bliss and Mayhem – my online space that I created to fuel my love of writing turns 1! Can you believe it??!! I can’t. I have never really ever stuck with a hobby for more than a couple of months – this must be a sign of more good things to come. And thank you. All of you, so very much for stopping by and checking out this little space. The support, comments and love that I have felt through this process has been overwhelming. During this time I have written about so many things, snippets of my journey raising... Read more →

My experience with Autism

Close your eyes for a moment. Actually, open them again, silly me, you won’t be able to read! Imagine; Anxiety, pressure, stress, panic. Now imagine being so overwhelmed that the only thing that calms you down is humming with your mouth for hours- feeling the sensation of tingles across your tongue and the sound of the hum blocking out the outside terror that you are experiencing. Imagine not being able to tell anyone how you are feeling, what you want or need, or to ask a simple question. Not being able to connect the message from your brain to go... Read more →

50 Shades of Grey. Really??

In my last post I wrote about “taking stock”, about things that were happening in my world and to give you more of an insight to me. I also mentioned that I had to “bookmark” a date night. It had been far too long since Steve and I went on a date. So on Monday, I asked my mama to watch my lovelies after work so we could spend some quality time together, not talking to each other in a dark cinema for two hours! Ha! Here we are! Date Night! Woop woop! And with all the hype, circulation of... Read more →

I had cancer last year. And it fucking sucked

Cancer. One word that you never want to hear. A word that starts with C. Cervical Cancer. A double word with C. It’s a fucking horrible word. I’d even prefer the other C word, to the dismay of my Mother; I have a gutter mouth at times but a heart of gold. However many stories that you hear, it doesn’t even matter whether you know someone that has had cancer, nothing can prepare you for when a doctor tells you the news that you do. Your world literally stops. And everything goes into slow motion. The things that you thought... Read more →

not just any plate

A little tear left my eye a couple of days ago. You see, this plate had been a constant in our household for the last 10 years. Not just any plate, but a plate that saw many great times and not so great times with Ethan growing up and his Autism. I don’t even remember where it came from. How we got it. I don’t even really like monkeys. Ethan saw the plate broken on the bench and didn’t even flinch. I was the one that was sentimental and emotional about it all – it had meaning to me not... Read more →

Legacy

I really thought that I knew it all – you know, back in the day when I was a ripe old age of 18! The time when being 30 and being responsible was decades away and when my biggest concern was how I was going to afford a big night out and to make sure that I remembered the guys name the next day. And looking back, I did know everything then, for me, at that time. But the older and older that I am getting, I’m coming to the realisation that I know nothing of what I once thought,... Read more →